BEDA Day 25: The Notes I'll Never Send

I'm writing this while I visit my grandparents, who think that I am in bed reading right now and don't know I brought my laptop with me. Although there is really no need to sneak around or hide this fact from them, I'm doing it anyways?


Instead of the usual "this is what I did today...." that I usually post, I'm going to post a mini-project I've been working on. Every time someone in my life does something that upsets me or makes me angry at them I write it down in the form of a note or letter that I'll never send. Nothing new and not an original idea by any means. I'm calling it "The Notes I'll Never Send." Here are some examples:* 



1) you're incredibly selfish. you only talk to me when you want something. That's pathetic. I'm not saying that all the blame lies with you, but every time I try to talk to you about it and make any attempt at fixing our relationship you interupt me as if what I have to say isn't important enough to waste your time listening to. The thing that is most pathetic is that I always go back. It's like an abusive relationship that way. All I ever really wanted was your approval. But hey, we always want what we can't have don't we?


2) I don't know what I'm more angry about, the fact that you were flirting with me while you had a girlfriend and essentially leading me on, or the way that you told me you had a girlfriend. At the very least I thought we were friends and that we could be honest with one another. Now I find out that you two have been dating for three weeks now? I've talked to you in the last three weeks, you definitely could have said something. Now we haven't talked in a week because I'm waiting for you to talk to me. Maybe I'm being juvenille by waiting for you to talk to me, but excuse me for thinking that we were good enough friends that our relationship would have been strong enough to survive either of us dating someone else. The really stupid thing is I miss you. I enjoyed being your friend. I guess fate has a funny way of working out sometimes?



*Names have obviously been left out, but the people who these are directed towards could probably figure it out if they read them, but to the best of my knowledge these individuals don't read my blog.